Someone please take me to a place where I can look at a view like this every morning and every afternoon? please....

Me and my momma

absolutely love these pics lol. taken over a decade ago! My mother and I have come a long way. Everybody knows me and her never really had the best of relationships... aaah we've BEEN through a lot. But she's my mommy,I loooooove her with all of my heart. Id die for her. 

Onika

Is it just me or does Nicki look like Chaka Khan? Yes?No? ....okay

"all men are the same" - Girls.. The confirmation by Cole

"But the truth is,we all the same..on different teams but its all a game. The objective: tryna score.." - J. Cole

My husband

You say Cole aint hot,WHAT!!?? Where you read that shit!?

**)

cole

My baby

I live by 0 CARE. If I care its coz you really deserve it or I borrowed it from somewhere... other wise *sticks middle finger up*

**) Beez in the trap,bee beez in the trap!!!! tja ala thiss ass yo#yeshomo

"Comparisons are easily done once you've had a taste of perfection" - Mmasechaba Monareng

Congratulations to my favourite singer Adele Adkins! She's preggies!!! from a terrible heartbreak to finding love and expecting joy?? now thats wassup!

Ok Iv beeeeen here. Its so much fun to just post whatever,even if no one sees its still much fun :). Never thought Id be into this whole blogging thing. I didnt understand it before but ayyyyyt here I am. Ive still got alot to learn about it.. Iv seen some really awesome blogs that make mine seem like dust. Beyonce's blog??? tjaar.

Ok anyway goodnight to whoever reads this in time. Dont forget to pee and pray before you go to bed. Remember,Jesus loves you ok?

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Psalm 86... One of my favourites...

Psalm 86

A prayer of David.

¹ Hear me, Lord, and answer me,
    for I am poor and needy.
² Guard my life, for I am faithful to you;
    save your servant who trusts in you. 
You are my God; ³ have mercy on me, Lord,
    for I call to you all day long.
⁴ Bring joy to your servant, Lord,
    for I put my trust in you.

⁵ You, Lord, are forgiving and good,
    abounding in love to all who call to you.
⁶ Hear my prayer, Lord;
    listen to my cry for mercy.
⁷ When I am in distress, I call to you,
    because you answer me.

⁸ Among the gods there is none like you, Lord;
    no deeds can compare with yours.
⁹ All the nations you have made
    will come and worship before you, Lord;
    they will bring glory to your name.
¹⁰ For you are great and do marvelous deeds; 
    you alone are God.

¹¹ Teach me your way, Lord,
    that I may rely on your faithfulness; 
give me an undivided heart,
    that I may fear your name.
¹² I will praise you, Lord my God, with all my heart; 
    I will glorify your name forever.
¹³ For great is your love toward me;
    you have delivered me from the depths,
    from the realm of the dead.

¹⁴ Arrogant foes are attacking me, O God;
    ruthless people are trying to kill me—
    they have no regard for you. 
¹⁵ But you, Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God,
    slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness. 
¹⁶ Turn to me and have mercy on me;
    show your strength in behalf of your servant;
save me, because I serve you    just as my mother did. 
¹⁷ Give me a sign of your goodness,
    that my enemies may see it and be put to shame,
    for you, Lord, have helped me and comforted me.

Amen

B!

MY QUEEN!!! Im a Bey Stan....Il forever love this woman

That Bey and Jay kinda LOVE **)

one of my obsessions...

Im FOR shades ma niiigaaaaa!!! i need to own about 20 pairs by the end of the year. Im only on 8 pairs.. but il get there. ah i LOOOVE shades.

Every girl deserves a guy that will be her bestie and her lover at the same time ... <3

this typa love <3

 

Bathi "there's so many fish in the sea"... I got an ocean full of niggas... but I know that that ONE is not in there.. and when HE steps in the ocean? believe me,i'll know for sure..

@LwaZee_V  <-----aww woooooza...aw wowowowowoza aw follow me! lol

How cute is this? :) :)

I am not my hair...

So Etv's 3rd Degree with Debra Patta spoke about the battle of natural hair and weaves.... I really wanted to have my say about it. The show made it seem as though black ladies are tryna be what they are not and they are losing their identities by putting fake hair to alter their looks... Extreme bullshit if you ask me. Yes, what you do to your hair does show a bit of your personality but it doesnt neccesarily define who you are. Come on,we are not living in the olden days anymore,things have changed. As women, looks are extremely important to us. we want to look good every where we go, we like to try new looks and new things to see how it would turn out. But that does not mean we are changing who we are. We havent forgotten that we are African women.. and that title doesnt lie in our hair alone. I thought it was very unfair for us black women to be humiliated in that way. Dont white people have extensions??? dont they colour/bleach they hair??? yes hey do.. now tell me, is that a sign of them losing their identity? lets take a second to think about it ...... No,I also didnt think so. Weaves,extensions are modernisation. has nothing to do with losing our "african' identity. Ok,to some it is, some ladies arent proud of their natural self and use fake hair to cover up. But its the same with make up,those who arent happy with their skin go buy make up to cover up.
I could go on forever,but i just wanted to point out that our exterior does not determine the interior. Yes,it gives off a lil piece of our personality but it does not FULLY define who we are. I have a weave,but naturally have an afro. Im African,whether Im weaved,got an afro or braided. Nothing will change that shit!! India Arie did say "I am not my hair,I am not this skin,I am the soul that lives within..."




PS: Somebody show that lady Debra this post!

LOVE this

Still I Rise

BY MAYA ANGELOU

You may write me down in history   

With your bitter, twisted lies,

You may trod me in the very dirt   

But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?

Why are you beset with gloom?   

’Cause I walk like I've got oil wells   

Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,   

With the certainty of tides,   

Just like hopes springing high,   

Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?   

Bowed head and lowered eyes?   

Shoulders falling down like teardrops,   

Weakened by my soulful cries?

Does my haughtiness offend you?   

Don't you take it awful hard

’Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines   

Diggin’ in my own backyard.

You may shoot me with your words,   

You may cut me with your eyes,

You may kill me with your hatefulness,

But still, like air, I’ll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?

Does it come as a surprise

That I dance like I've got diamonds   

At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history’s shame

I rise

Up from a past that’s rooted in pain

I rise

I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,   

Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear

I rise

Into a daybreak that’s wondrously clear

I rise

Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,   

I am the dream and the hope of the slave.   

I rise

I rise   

I rise

I want this shiiit **)

K so like I'm back! haven't posted in a couple of weeks and since my mini phase of "depression". If you'd like to know how I am now (doubt you'd care though) I'm actually good.. well I'm fine rather. Have I sorted myself out? Kinda... nyana. All I know is that I'm not as depro as before. So my break from the world didn't really last long lol. I wanted to stay away for like 2 weeks but I only managed 4 days. But in that 4 days I actually got to learn a bit more about myself... The reason why I was so down was because of the pressure people/the world puts on me.. Dont really wanna get into it though.. but Iv developed a '0 level care' attitude. YES I DONT CARE... well not much. The most important person in my life right now has to be ME. God>ME> everyone else (yes there's a specific order but that really doesnt matter). Im tired of living to other people's expectations and hoping someone will notice how awesome I am... flip Iv BEEN doing that shit. seeking approval from others. I know I said happiness is internal,well yes yes it is. NOW Im actually living that way. Although things are still at a stand still in my life I see potential great things happening. God has been so kind to me even when I neglected him. He knocked at my hearts door and Iv let Him in and He promised to be my driving instructor chilling in the passanger's seat of the car of life  (10 June 2012,Sunday_ a powerful message at church that I needed to hear in order to turn my state of mind around) . I still need that get away though,Im not fully healed but Im getting there... but yeah man,Im ok. I hope whoever reads this post is also okay and is well with life and the shit it throws at us..

xoxoxoxo

Just one of those nights where Im feeling pretty down...infact Iv been feeling like this for a couple of days now.. Life gets to me sooo much at times,it gets a lil too much for me to handle. Im an emotional wreck,happiness visits me for a couple of days and leaves me back to my "depressed" self again. Im so young,but Iv had enough of life and its hardships really. I have given up on myself and the things I really loved :(. This has been by far the worst year of my entire 18 years of existence. I smile at the world because I dont like it when people are worried about me and I hate pity parties but sometimes I just wish someone knew me well enough to see that Im not fine and that some of my smiles and laughs are actually a front. My mind,heart and soul don't feel like they work together any more... Im screaming inside,Im very frustrated... I decided to take a break from the "world" and go away for a bit to see if I can get my mind right. My mindset is terrible right now :( ... FUCK! I hate feeling like this. Everything Iv ever known always just seems to disappear. Everytime I think I got myself together and iv found my "internal happiness" that I love to preach to people about,I lose myself all over again.. Or maybe Im just going through a phase..well I do hope so. But this shit has been going on for too long. Im even contradicting myself interms of my previous happy posts. But ya... anyway...