Letting go

I had such a rough night last night... once again,I cried til I feel asleep. Contemplating on the idea of letting go of someone that meant sooooo much to me. As much as the idea of it hurts so bad. Iv spent 2 months crying over him,pathetic most would say..thats just how i feel..but sometimes letting go  is actually the best thing you can do..I woke this morning with a clearer mind. iv been having these battles between my mind and my heart. my heart lies with him...but my mind seems to make more sense. its about that time to let it all go...the love,the past...him..  Theres a song by a lady called Heather (forgot her surname) - In my mind. she says "If you love something you've got to let it go..and if it comes back then it means so much more...but if it never does,at least you will know that it was something you had to go though to grow" ... I shed a tear when I heard this song during my breakup,but when I think about it,there is so much truth in those words... Its time to let go and let live! and grow... This is just a way of showing me that better things await me.

Love is a bullshit feeling,but its beautiful too... i dont regret loving him. I actually aprreciate him and grateful that I got to have him in my life for sometime... :) I hope one day he gets to read my blog to know how i felt/feel. He has contributed to who I am and what il be...