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There is alot going on in my life...but at the same time,nothing is going on in my life.... I am not happy with the way things are going for me... i find myself asking many questions like "why am i here" "what is my purpose" "will anything go right for me". I once had dreams and visions set out for what I wanted this year to be for me... i wanted to go to school,pursue singing,have a great relationship with a 'better-half'" etc... all the things i had set out for myself just seemed to fail. BOOM..explosion right in my face.Everything... If i could turn back the hands of time i really wouldve loved things to turn out differently for me.

I feel like life is at a stand still,theres no zest for it anymore...nothing to look forward to... Im so young and i really hate feeling like this. All the other people my age have goals,dreams and visions..and me? Well.... *sigh* I dont know... i really think I need to do a lot of soul searching,to heal myself from all the rubbish that went wrong and to find where I wanna be,who I wanna be...What I wanna be.