LMAO bathi triple C... wahahahahaha

party of the year!!!!!!!!! MUST GO!

They say "every man for himself"... Well I dont fully agree. What I say is that you need to know which man/men/people is/are for you. In life,we meet specific people who play roles in our lives. People who have helped us shape ourselves into what we are today. So we do need people in one way or another that help you in life,but to me it is very important to know which people are there for you and which people are important to have in life to mould you into a better person. Know which people CARE ABOUT YOU as much as YOU CARE ABOUT THEM. Rank the people in your life the same way they rank you in theirs. Care for those who care for you too... sacrifice for those who will do the same for you. There is no other crap feeling than to have someone as a priority/top rank in your life but only to find out you are faaaaar down the list in their life. In my 18+ years of existence I have learned who is for me and who is not for me in the ways I am for them. When you take time just to really think about who actually gives a fuck about you. Such an assessment is vital! makes life and elimination of unnecessary things alot easier...

And most importantly,if someone doesnt care about you,you need to apply a ZERO LEVEL CARE.you can breathe without them,so you dont need them either..and you shouldnt give a damn

Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never ends.  1 Corinthians 13:4-8 

Queen B

This poem made me cry...especially the last part. I related to it in soooo many ways...

Scars by Rudy Francisco

1. If I could I would nail these hands to the edges of stars. I would sacrifice this body to the sky hoping to resurrect as someone spiteful enough to not give a fuck about you.

2. Staple me to a cross. Pierce my side with a broken promise and I will bleed all the crippled reasons why you deserve one more chance.

3.Your bed smells like the last thing I was really good at.

4.You wanna know how I got these scars? I ripped every last piece of you out of my smile. 

5. I whispered you stardust.

6. I spoke you into sunflowers. 

7.I dipped my hands in forever. Touched you infinity. Treated you as if you were the last molecule of oxygen inside of a gas chamber. I was good to you.

8. You wanna know how I got these scars? I swallowed my pride and it clawed it’s way outside of my mouth. 

9. I realized I was never really your boyfriend. I was just your fuckin hype man. 

10. I hope your next boyfriend gets smallpox.

10. Yes I said smallpox!

10. I hate you!

10. I miss you!

10. I love you!

10. It’s hard for me to count when I get emotional.

10. I heard that 90% of human interaction is nonverbal so….

10. If I could I would tie your arms to a daydream and then auction you off to my fondest memories. 

See I wrote this poem in my own spinal fluid, I put it on the backbone of a white flag so before you read it you’ll already know that I’ve given up. I’ll just keep you here. Shackled to the most important chapter of my life story pressed into the basement of my eyelids like liquid salvation so I remember you beautiful with amazing underneath your wings and an orchid smile you gorgeous earthquake. You cracked hourglass with sand spilling from behind your ribs, you wasted my time.

How dare you linger on my lips and then kiss me like a stuttering apology with excuses stapled to the roof of your mouth. I still remember you like a dream  tattooed to the inner walls of a long term memory but some days I wonder if you existed at all. 

And of course, you wanna know how I got these scars. 

Well fine I’ll tell you…

I got these scars the day I fell in love with you. 

I landed face first.

TRUUUUUUUUUUST IT!!!

"Christianity is not a religion....it is a LIFESTYLE..."
Everyday I wake up I strive to be a representative of God so that people who do not know Him may see Him exist within me.... They should stop and ask themselves 'who is this God you serve so much that does such things to you and for you"

I am not perfect and I am a sinner but my God is slow to anger,He is forgiving and abounding in love... He never fails me,even though i sometimes fail Him. Each night I pray that He enters the hearts of those that dont believe in Him,that He shows them miracles for them to think twice and REALISE that He is there...

I never wanna judge them for not believing,instead I pray for them ukuthi one day nje....

To whoever who reads this... keep well,God LOVES you!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Crucifixion type love - Brent Rice

A friend sent me this poem today... as a young lady in Christ,this poem means THE WORLD to me and especially with the kind of future partner id love to have. I had to share this...

“My biggest prayer is to love her right
I want to…
Love her like Christ loved the church
Love her like her Father in Heaven
Loves Her Love her like the Holy Spirit loves her soul
And love her like she was created to be loved

But sometimes….
Sometimes my flesh tries to intimidate me with that kind of love
Its like my spirit cries out from the depths of this corrupted prison
With the voice of abel screaming that
I have not loved her to the extent Christ loves the church
 I want a crucifixion type love

Everytime I hug her I want my arms to be spread out on the cross
And I want to die to my childish ways
Everytime I look into her eyes
I want a crown of thorns to be placed on my head and surrender my thought life to her honor
I want the walks we take in the park
To be nails driven into my feet so that they will lead her with the authority of Moses
 I want a crucifixion type love

I want my side to be pierced every time we laugh together
so that ill always remember that she is my rib
Everytime I sleep and dream of her
I want my back to be beaten with a catonine tails
so that I’ll always carry her burdens for her
Everytime I’m not with her
I want to stand before pilate and stand true to my relationship with her
I want those who have seen me to have seen her in ME when we are apart
 I want a crucifixion type love

I want a love that will cause dead men to rise
When people gaze on us, they want to know who is this Christ that we speak of
Everytime she falls I want to take her in my arms like my cross and carry her up to calvary
I want men to mock me for not wanting to be like them
For not wanting to squander my love on various women
But to have the passion to pour out my love onto one soul for all of eternity
 I want a crucifixion type love
I want a love that was predestined before eternity
I want a love that was birthed in my mother’s womb
I want a love that is willing to give up this world for her
I want a love that is immaculate
I want a love that makes the angel’s wish they were in our shoes
I want a love that will make me pray to God and say
 Who am I that YOU are mindful of me to bless me with her
I want a crucifixion type love

I want a love that bleeds purity
I want a love that people will lie on us just to see us split apart
I want a love that will make me run away to a far village,
build a mansion for you with my bare hands
and send you love letters every day reminding you of me
letters that you can keep in a book and spend time reading them every day
I want a love that will make my spirit pray for you
I want a love that will make me walk on water
in the middle of the most dangerous storm for you
 I want a crucifixion type love

I want a love that my friends will betray me because of my affection for you
I want a love that after we’re gone,
that for centuries to come men will aim to follow in our legacy
Everytime I rise in the morning
I want it to be my cross being raised upright for you
To stand on the hill of my life and portray a beautiful sacrifice
I want to be placed into the tomb of your heart
The Tomb that your mother and father built
I want a love that will rise with all power over adversity
 I want a love that people will flock to see if it is real
I want a crucifixion type love

I want a love that shows my yearning for you
I want a love that even when we argue,
I still have a burning passion & desire to be with you
I want a love that heals
The kind of love that covers the wounds that were dug deep by the knives of infidelity and insecurity
I want a love that makes God get up and dance around his throne every time he sets his eyes on us
I want a crucifixion type love

So with all of that said
 Lord, give me the strength to love her like you love me
Like the way you didn’t consider being equal with the Father a thing to be grasped
But you came and gave up your throne for the filth of this world And in love, you served In the same way
Let me serve her unconditionally infinitely
Let me MAN UP
And quit wasting time playing games
and pursue her like you pursue your church
Because you have chosen me to be entrusted with her heart
So let me cherish it like a jeweler cherishes a diamond
Let me examine it and find out every minute detail about her worth

I want to love her
like Abraham loved Sarah
Like Isaac loved Rebecca
Like Jacob loved Rachel
Like Boaz loved Ruth
Like Solomon loved his Queen
 I want a crucifixion type love

So into your hands I commit this relationship
Because I want to love her like you Love your church

I WANT a Crucifixion…type…love…

I dont know what to post anymore so Ima leave it here for the day... Goodnight to whoever reads this.. Remember to pee and pray before bed!!!!

I love you though I dont know you ( I love you as a child of God lol)

 xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

"You don't have to love me... You don't even have to like me.. BUT you WILL respect me.. You know why?? .... Coz Im a BOSS"

QUEEN of House vocals - Monique Bingham

Melanie Fiona... new found love for this woman and her music

Melanie Fiona....

Gone And Never Coming Back lyrics

Hmmmm

Sad that memories never die
Just fill your head with why
Then you're caught living a lie again
It's sad that all he ever said
Was that he love me to death
But then he's gone again
And I was wrong again
fuck him
Cause you think it's easier
Easy like that
Just when I wasn't finished
You were gone like that
Can't you hear me crying
Cause I need you back
Cause I'm slowly dying
Cause I need you bad
But you're gone and never coming back
Gone and not coming back
He's never coming back

Should of known the long kiss good-bye
Would bring sadness in my life
Wearing this disguise again
I wish that you would've said
Or lied to me instead
Like a bullet to my head
Like a fool I pretend
That it's on again
On again

Cause you think it's easier
Easy like that
Just when I wasn't finished
You were gone like that
Can't you hear me crying
Cause I need you back
And I'm slowly dying
Cause I need you bad
But you're gone and never coming back
Gone and not coming back
He's never coming back

Whoever said look on the brighter side
Has never been on mine
Whoever said that he'll get his
Never felt like this

Ain't no use in crying
When your done like that
Cause baby baby you took something
That I can't buy back
And now you're gone and never coming back
Coming back
Oh he's not coming back

HAALOO :)

K,so half the year is done.. everybody knows I havent had the best year. Im so glad we are half way there. Looking back on the past 6 months I... wait fuck that,I dont wanna look back or go back there!!!! So here we are at a new month,new half.. its time to make things happen. Dont ask me why I havent been making things happen before please coz I wont answer you.. If I wanna have a great year next year I need to plant my seed now. Ima take advantage of the next 6 months.. I have this strong feeling that they will bring about some good things.. I really do :) . So I just got to work hand in hand with God and make shit happen.

To the next 6 months of 2012 :))) *raises glass of juice*